turn your head it is easier that way

dont bother reading any of this.

because you dont believe it anyways

so stop looking now

there are much better things to do

like yelling  into a mirror

and judging what you once held onto

there is no time for reading 

there is money to be made

and words to take back

and a dying life to live

ignore the eternal 

and it will force its way in

because it is all there is

and convenient distractions will only suffice for so long

which is not much longer

but stop reading now

because there is nothing new here

just the same old thing

from every eon passed

as each and every aeon awakens

it is just the same old truth

and it shall be manipulated and ignored

just like it always has

thats the story

denial of the truth

out of fear

or blood lust

watch him walk down the lane

and pretend you dont know him

as every scar is reopened with a new strike

lifetimes apart but the same thing

over and over

nailed up

this world is nothing but the imagination of a dying man nailed to some wood.

biding our time...wink wink.

perplexed, distressed and obsessed

with a dream in a dream

considered insane in an insane world

chasing a  fantasy world of life and love

inside a world of death and decay

felt by so many but ignored as an impossibility

all the while, the solidity of supposed reality drifts away

and the lines between fact and fiction, dreams and reality blur

universal laws are swept under the rug

and a false morality system is put in place by a hypocritical control system

but who is in control?

the people answer to their "superiors"

the "superiors" answer to theirs; which is a business

which is a death machine

an invisible thousand eyed monster

the machine is run by a few select families

who answer to nobody...except the monster they created

the carpet is much too lumpy to walk on

so the filth is leaking out the sides and eating itself

the dreamers tread lightly watching the show play out

waiting patiently and exchanging words, looks and winks of a secret language

an ancient language

a language of silence amongst the chaotic noise

we stare into each others eyes and silently say "my god....when?"

soon my love(s)

all of them. all of you.

wrapped up in one.

enjoy the show

it is going to be a weird one.

forgive

the book has been opened

and all the truth came flying out 

all over the place

living in an illiterate world for thousands of years

and then the book is open

it is a lot of heavy reading to do

and the definitions of things are being drastically altered

or corrected

life, time, love, money, existence

we had definitions

but these definitions flew out the window

when the wind from the turning pages began

we will soon know what it means to truly be alive

we will soon know that time is information and understanding

we will soon know what it means to truly love

we will soon find a new symbol of exchange, one not originating from black magick

we will soon know why we exist

all will be shown

all will be known

all will be forgiven

all will be given purpose

you will love what you hate

and we will be together once again

gorgeous little babies tricked into thinking they are grown ups

remember what it was like to accept love from all and trust that everything is the way it should be?

an invisible song

the prongs of a fork

and the spaces in between.

possibilities.

want an answer?

ask a question.

want to go somewhere?

take a step.

even if it is a baby one.

no longer need to ask 

mother may i.

it is obvious who you are going to pick

during duck duck goose.

but do not forget the spaces.

the invisible can sometimes contain so much.

and expectations can carry so much weight.

but who needs all that stress?

if we jump through the gaps in the bridge

we will land on the ladder 

going up through rather than around the circle

there is never a need to question anything

because the answer is up to you

every single time.

Bow to queen slaves....The empire never ended.

A good friend of mine has multiple sclerosis.  For over two years she fought to get disability as it is too much on her body to work the necessary hours in order to sustain a comfortable living situation.  Comfortable as in, being able to have walls around you, yourself fed and the heat on in the winter.  After two years of making phone calls and filing papers that would lead to more phone calls and claim denials she gave in and paid a lawyer to represent her even though she could not really afford it.  The lawyer brought the same claim she attempted to file for over two years and it was approved immediately. 

She began receiving $1000 a month to live.  $500 goes directly to rent to live in a slightly shady part of town.  $100 goes to medicare so she can make her regular necessary check ups. Now it is realized that her medicine for multiple sclerosis is not covered by medicare and she needs to get something called gap insurance. This is going to cost somewhere around $150 a month.  This leave her $250 a month to live with $200 food stamps.

Before going on disability she was receiving $200 food stamps and $200 cash assistance.  After receiving disability for a few months they turned off her food stamps because they said she didn't need them anymore since she was receiving other benefits.  After a few months of just using the cash assistance they told her that she should not have cash assistance and should have food stamps but since she was using the cash assistance when she was not supposed to have it that she now had to repay all that she used...something like 4 or 5 months worth. 

Don't get me wrong it is a blessing that there is money available for her to live.  Even if it is in a shady part of town.  And it is great that she has some money for food and expenses even if it is just $450 a month.  That is a little over $100 a week to eat and live.  It is amazing that she is provided for in any way.  But why do they give and then just take it all back forcing someone to live in poverty? 

This is her story.  There a millions more like this in one form or another.  Even if it is not this drastic the entire population is taxed and taxed and their taxes are taxed.  Most people accept this money being taken from their pocket in every paycheck and with every transaction at the store because it goes back into the country and makes it a better place and helps its citizens.  Yet how well are the citizens who are sick and hungry cared for?

While trillions of dollars go into the "defense" budget this country marches on plowing through countries full of brown people because they have weapons that we sold them.  TRILLIONS.  To build the war machine.  While my friend with a disease lives in poverty.  And when i leave her apartment and walk up the street i see the streets filled with trash, junkies sitting on stoops, people who walk up and down the street talking to themselves, families with nothing to eat and homeless people asking for change or a cigarette to suppress their hunger.

Imagine if those trillions went back into the country of the citizens whose hard labor not only earned but CREATED that money that goes into the system that build the war machine to fight the imaginary enemies the machine itself creates.  Not only could every human in this country be provided for but every human in the world could.  Nobody needs to be hungry, homeless or ignorant. 

Instead everyone is robbed so a machine can go murder countries full of innocent beautiful men, women and children.

Where did the living Nazi's go after World War II?  Who won that war?  The only difference in the blueprints is in scale.  And this one is grand.  A grand lie on a grand scale.  

Happy Memorial Day. 

All the wars combined into ONE

war upon war upon war

country against country

religion against religion

man against nature

against himself

this war is galactic

this war is spiritual

this war is for the most precious gift

your heart, mind and soul

your weapon is love

your weapon is truth

we already won

we just have to remember

the story.

the loss of a woman.

lost to despair.

over the loss of a baby boy.

who left out of despair.

over the loss of a woman.

forever and ever we go.

until.....

They story is over.

Plato's Cave

So i reluctantly stumble back into the world.....

The beginning.

As I begin to type my left eye started to twitch uncontrollably.  It has subsided.  I have no reason for writing this.  There is no purpose here. There is no purpose here. There is no purpose here.  There is no purpose here.

I have recently begun to read the newly published Exegesis of Philip K. Dick.  I hear that it existed. I wished to be able to read it. It has now been published and is in my hands.  It seems as though he wrote it for me.  His thoughts seem to be the same as mine.  Mr. Dick speaks of two time lines we live in and the interference pattern as the two collide is what we experience of this reality.  I experienced this on my own before reading his ideas.

I was watching the Empire Strikes Back for the first time in a long time.  I felt the information, energy and entertainment coming at me from the screen, penetrating my sense field  and flowing off behind me.  At the same time i felt this looping wheel of time that rather than coming from in front of me and passing through me seemed to come from above and came down into my brain looping around continuously in a circle as big as the movie is long.  The first time wave was the energy of the original moment happening. The second time wave was the energy field that was built over time with my multiple watchings of that movie.  So as each scene affected me at that present moment i felt ever other time i ever watch each scene.  I saw the rooms i watched it in, the people i was with and the feelings being carried at those times.

Once we recognize the second time wave we can utilize it to unlock hidden memories and almost be a part of multiple dimensions and timelines at one time. Which is what is always happening anyway isnt it?  Everything all at once for ever and ever.  This makes no sense to some people. Some people this makes sense but it still cannot be grasped.  Though, I believe more and more people will not only recognize this to be true but will begin to understand it, experiment and experience it first hang.  We are living in eternity right now my friends.  It is all you. Welcome.